When I was a little girl, I always dreamed of having a little girl and naming her "Miranda Priscilla." I loved that name for years and Keely screeches in horror at the thought she could be called Miranda. When I was pregnant with her though, I was confident I was having a boy. I had picked out the name Damien Cole. (No, I had no idea there was a movie about a
satan child named Damien.) Later in my pregnancy however, I was reading a book and found the name Keely. I looked up the meaning and it meant beauty or beautiful. Keely's pregnancy was a bit of a struggle for me because I was a young mom and had little support. I knew though that my baby would be the first beauty to enter my life and I was blessed. In fact, she did change my life for the better in
everyway. After having such conviction with her name, it seemed quite clear I was having a girl.
While pregnant with Noah, again, I wanted to be surprised with the gender. We liked the name Emma, because of course I thought I was having a girl, but it just didn't touch my heart the same way Keely's name had. Just prior to becoming pregnant with Noah, Mike and I had begin attending church at New Hope. I had wanted to be baptized immediately, but Mike was more hesitant initially. A few months went by and I tried to be Mike's Holy Spirit, clearly causing distance between Mike and the Lord. However, the Lord prevailed in spite of me and Mike and I were baptized in May, the fifth month of my pregnancy. Afterwards, we felt rather isolated. Our family seemed to think we had found a new fad and reminded us frequently that we had many flaws, which real Christians would not have. This persecution made me really identify with the isolation Noah must have felt. When I shared this name with Mike we knew the Lord had hand picked it for him and of course, we gave him Mike's middle name. Noah Michael. Noah genuinely thought he was closer to God than the rest of us because after all, he did build the ark and was baptized while in my belly.
Our third pregnancy, we knew the Lord would provide a name but waiting for that to come was painstaking. I remember reading an Old Testament passage about being pure like the lily and thought Lily might be her name. Again, convinced I was having a girl. This child came after years of my praying for another child. Mike had a vasectomy while I was pregnant with Noah and for years, I prayed the Lord would change his heart and give him the desire for another child. Many years later it happened, but he said if the Lord wanted us to have a child, he could overcome a vasectomy. Not too long afterwards Mike said if we could find the money or a cheap resource for a reversal, he would have it done. Another miracle presented when we found a Christian physician in
Merriville, Indiana. He was a wonderful man and performed the procedure at cost. Mike had the surgery just prior to my starting graduate school in June. Seven months later we learned we were pregnant. After much prayer and thanksgiving for this pregnancy, the Lord provided the name Lyric. It was perfect because we were so grateful and wanted a name to represent the praise and worship we wanted to offer. I was also quite moved by the story of Abraham and the test of faith he was given. I had prayed a great deal for this child and like Hannah,
bargained for him. It wasn't until after Lyric was born and was clearly going home to Jesus that we found the irony in both his first and middle name, Lyric Bram. It was hard to write the name on his birth certificate, but I knew the Lord had picked them for him and years later, I can't imagine anything different.
Samuel was maybe the easiest of all, I mean in respect to waiting for his name to be clear to me. I am not sure if that was because I was in denial of my being pregnant for so long or if that was because his name was clear from the beginning. It seems we knew immediately though that we would name him Samuel - God's gift. The meaning was perfect, but the name itself wasn't quite comfortable on my tongue. I found in a commentary somewhere that Shem was a nickname for Samuel. Shem was Noah's son, the blessed son. His middle name Moses was simply because the story of Moses was and is one of the greatest inspirations to me from the Bible. There are so many wonderful lessons to be learned from the life of Moses and daily the Lord seems to remind me of at least one, which gives me the perseverance in my own calling. The funny thing, and completely unexpected, was Samuel ended up being born in water. Still today he loves being in the water and seems to be completely unaware of when it completely covers his face in the shower. Samuel Moses - our gift, born into water.
Now...once again, I await direction from the Lord as if I am awaiting Christmas morning. Our back-up name for Samuel was Jewel, although we were confident with him that we were having a boy. This time, once again, I wonder if I am having a girl. I simply can't imagine though. It would be fabulous and of course, she would be well welcomed, but we all seem to agree that we have become quite use to boys in the house. The name Jewel though seems to sit in my mind. Mike's grandmother's name was Jewel and having been so close to his father, it would please him
immensely to name his daughter after her. However, I am also reminded of a mother I cared for very early in my career.
As I started my shift, the board of laboring mothers was read to the on-coming nurses and we were told a very large mother in room ten was being induced and clearly would need a cesarean. She was assigned to me, sort of as a joke, "because if anyone can get a vaginal birth out of her, it would be Penny." Absolutely. I was on a mission. Believing in women goes a long way! This woman, whose name I can't even remember, was one of the kindest women I have ever met. It was an honor to assist her in birthing her daughter, Diamond Sierra into the world. A few years later as I took report for my shift, again as had become my legacy, I was given the difficult case. I walked in room six and to my surprise was Diamond's mother! She remembered me too and had said, "Oh, it's Penny," and she turned to her family and said, "Penny is a Christian." Then looked back at me for validation, "Right?" I was astonished and honored. My love for her was apparent. I was shocked that she knew I was a Christian without it having been blatantly shared.
Again, we had a beautiful birth and she named her son Marque, although I can't remember his middle name regrettably. It also was the name of a gem like her daughter and I asked her, why she had chosen such names. She explained to me that she visioned entering the gates of heaven and seeing an enormous, breath-taking wall of gems for all the Christians she had been a witness to and her children had led to the Lord. Anyway, I think of her and her wall of gems when I think of Jewel. What great joy it would be to have a daughter whose name represents evangelism. I suppose we'll see where the Lord leads us as we still have many months ahead of us!